There’s silence in the night. The dogs are snoring. Their bedtime is 9pm. I’m thinking too much, as usual. I wish I could sleep like the dogs. They don’t have a care in the world. All they know is that it’s bedtime. I have a lot to do in the next couple weeks. That’s what is keeping me up. Thinking, always thinking.

The moon is constant and bright. It reminds me that the sun will rise again tomorrow. A new day for new possibilities. Just as the moon goes through energy phases, so do I. Tonight I feel an energy that is causing some anxiety. Everyone in my life is super busy and going through a lot. I suppose that’s life though. I need to focus my attention on someone I can help. Maybe volunteering is a good option for me at this point.

My recovery has brought me to this point in life where I am able to be of service to others. I never was able to do anything for anyone when I was in my addiction. I’m free of that now. I will reach out to an organization tomorrow to see what I can do in the community that might help make a difference. I need to do something. I just have to get out of self.

Love and tolerance is our code.

Tonight I will pray for those people in my life who are going through rough times. It’s not all about Kelly. I am not the center of the Universe. The moon reminds me of that, too. There’s something bigger than me out there. I can draw on It’s power and get myself out of this funk. I can relax and take it easy. There’s no need to rush through this life. All I have to do right now in this moment is rest. That’s my job for self-care tonight. No more thinking. Good night, mind. You have my permission to relax and dream.

Sending love and light, Kel.