I thought everyone was a mind reader. I would sit in therapy and assume my therapist knew how I felt because I felt that she knew me so well and she would know. I would be at home and assume my mom knew I wasn’t feeling well that day from my depression. I would sit in class at school and assume my teachers knew I was excited to be there even though I never talked in class. My whole life I would assume these kinds of things.

Part of my experience is that I have a tendency to reply to questions in my head instead of out loud. That is another reason why I think people know what I’m feeling. I forget that I actually didn’t say anything. It’s kind of funny though.

I’ve learned to let others know what I’m thinking and feeling. I’ve learned to make things speakable; that there’s power in vulnerability. Do I speak my mind always? No. I’m not perfect. I do know now that it’s better to say how I’m feeling out loud than to hold it in and assume things.

It’s okay to be clear about your feelings. They’re valid and they deserve to be known. Take baby steps toward this if you haven’t practiced before. It feels freeing to let your feelings out. It can lead to immense healing.

Sending love and light, Kel.