Today I wasn’t as hard on myself as other days. I had some errands to run and got my hair trimmed; mixing chores with self-care. I cleaned the house for 2 hours; mixing chores with exercise (again, self-care). It was a day of balance. And, I was reminded very recently that not every day will be this way.

Job #2 didn’t quite work out as I had planned. My anxiety was so strong that I ended up quitting on day three. So, I’m going to keep looking. There’s got to be another job out there that’s a good fit! I am applying at the movie theater nearby. Hopefully it’ll work out this time. Retail didn’t work. Restaurants didn’t work. Maybe third time’s the charm?! I hope so! Something’s going to work out. I can feel it.

Keeping in balance, for me, means keeping the faith. Putting trust in my Higher Power. I know the Universe has my back. My Higher Power has a bigger plan for me than what I thought was going to happen. Doesn’t it always work out that way? My Higher Power has a sense of humor! My plans never work out how I think they will, but I always learn something from them. Always.

I’m so worried about bills and the future that I tend to forget that the Universe already has everything laid out for my life. I’ve heard it said, “you can’t be loyal to both God and money”. I think that’s true. So, why worry? It’s a waste of imagination…

Keeping in balance with chores and self-care today helped me to keep in contact with what really matters. I have food, shelter, a car and a license to drive it, two adorable dogs, and my mom. Anything my Higher Power throws at me now won’t change the fact that I’m really okay. I am. I’m okay in this moment of life.

Life is worth living even in the face of uncertainty. I think I had a therapist tell me that one time. Everything will be alright as long as I’m making an effort to continue on. When I become stagnant in life is when trouble starts to come around. I get too much into myself and into my head. I need to move forward no matter what happens (or doesn’t happen). Gratitude is a very powerful place to be in. It takes life’s simplest things and turns them into the biggest reasons to live.

I was once asked by a friend to help her write out a list of reasons to live. My reasons to live are the little things that give so much meaning to my life… and even give a sense of purpose. So, on those days when I’m not balanced or in tune with my Higher Power, I can remember my reasons to carry on.

Life is worth living…especially for the little moments that add up to the biggest sense of purpose. No one can tell me anything different from that because it’s a core belief and value of mine. It’s my truth. I intend to keep the faith and keep on keeping on, even in the face of uncertainty.

Sending love and light, Kel.