It’s time to gently detach from what’s keeping me from making myself a priority. I have to do what makes me happy without hiding. I deserve to take up space, too. I deserve everything that helps me become free from my self-destructiveness. And, deserving space & freedom for myself is something worth talking about. Because I didn’t realize with how suffocated I’ve been feeling about myself, that the suffocating feeling inside could be released. It’s not that I’m not prioritizing. It’s that I’m not making my priorities a priority… I don’t think I deserve things that I actually fucking do deserve… like taking care of myself.

That being said, I think this is a new chapter for me. It’ll be what I make it. If I want to stay stuck, all I need to do is keep doing what I’ve been doing for forever. I’m beginning to know better.

I can be and do anything I want in my life! I have to set goals and put them before everything else. I’m working on being my most authentic self. People might not always like that. Sometimes my authentic self is hidden behind fear of judgement and criticism. That’s most of the time. I’m learning not to be so afraid anymore! It’s quite freeing.

I don’t know what will happen next, and that’s okay. I’m not supposed to know, if I just do my part and then let the outcome work itself out. And that’s exactly how I want to start living.

Sending love and light, Kel.