I was talking with my therapist last week, and we started talking about the ripple effect; about how every action affects everything. I was surprised my therapist agreed 100%. Usually she’s challenging me on things I say! But when she gave the example of “even the timing of someone crossing the street has an effect on everything else,” and that’s exactly what I was going to say, I knew she was on the same page as me.

It felt good to be validated on my beliefs. Sometimes I don’t share what’s going on in my head/ what I’m thinking… for fear of being ridiculed. I suppose it’s conditioning of how things have played out in my life. Obviously, my therapist’s office is a safe space. I just mean “out there” in the world (where I get to practice what I learn in therapy).

I’ve shared more in therapy this year than I ever have before. I’ve told my therapist things I’ve never said out loud. A lot of credit goes to some phone call sessions where I can talk freely without having to experience [sometimes discomforting] eye contact. Also, I’ve written some journal entries & letters that I’m able to read out loud, and that makes it easier to formulate my thoughts ahead of time. But mostly, it’s about trust.

I’ve been working with my current therapist for 5½ years. Although, we took breaks here and there as I was figuring out parts of my journey that I thought I needed to trek alone. Those were weird times. 😳 I found out that I need the guidance. I know therapy won’t be forever, and that’s okay. I also know my therapist will be there if I ever need to return… whether it turns out to be once, or maybe a few sessions.

Building that kind of rapport is crucial, I think, to succeed in my treatment plan. I admit, I don’t follow my homework that my therapist gives me 100% of the time, but I’m only human. There’s always room for progress!

It’s a wonderful road to be walking on part of my journey with my therapist. She’s shown me ways to stand up for myself, ways to have some self-compassion… ways to take no bullshit from others (and even from myself)! I’m honored to have crossed paths with her in this world of 8 billion people. I’m truly grateful.

Sending love and light, Kel.