I’ve often thought about how there are 8 billion people in the world, all with different perspectives of life. And I’ve often wished I was a different person other than who I am. Maybe in those times that I wished I was someone else, what I was really searching for was a new perspective?

There’s no one telling me what actions to take in my life and how to react to things. Like all of us, I’ve been conditioned to be the way I am through environment, society, and family norms. Experiencing life through these things can be hurtful. Especially when we’re carrying trauma.

I was taught at a young age to run from everything. To run from feelings/ emotions, new experiences, and intimate connection with others. I’ve been running from these things for years and years. Slowly, I’m beginning to see that I don’t need to run.

I’m learning my worth as a human being. I deserve everything good in this life. I deserve to take up the space that my mind tells me I can’t or shouldn’t. Whether that’s my physical body or my thoughts. I can speak my mind. It won’t kill me. In fact, it’ll probably create a closer connection to others when I let them know my perspective on things. And, physically, I don’t need to lose the weight that society tells me is bad. My body holds its weight the way it’s supposed to. Weight doesn’t matter! It’s a number on the scale.

If other people can’t see the beauty that someone emits from their soul and only look at how others appear on the outside, then I don’t want to be around those people anyway! I don’t want superficial relationships. I want relationships where we can talk about anything without being judged. And, where I don’t have to change who I am.

So, today, I don’t want to be someone else. I can experience my world in any way that I wish. I just need to shift over the things I’ve been taught that no longer serve me in my life. I can set them aside and tell them that they’re not needed here.

I want to see myself as my loved ones see me.

Beautiful inside and out.

To shift my perspective means that I can shift the way I experience life. And, when that happens, I won’t need to run.

I will be free!

Sending love and light, Kel.