I haven't written on my blog in a while. I've been thinking a lot about it though. I just don't have much to say lately. I was talking with my therapist today and we both decided that I have a hard time identifying regular emotions; … Continue reading Identifying Regular Emotion

Living with Bipolar Disorder is tough. Everyone with the disorder experiences it a little differently. For me, it's mostly severe depressive episodes with occasional hypomania and sometimes a relatively short period of stability (maybe 2 or 3 months). It is my understanding that hypomania literally … Continue reading Hypomanic

I'm feeling immense gratitude today. I've learned that I can't force gratitude. I can't just write a gratitude list and feel better, especially when I'm depressed or having a plain old down day. When gratitude comes, it's like a gift. I feel it throughout my … Continue reading From “I like you” to “I love you”

I remember when I fell in love with writing. I was in 5th grade and it was talent day. A girl in my class read a poem that she wrote, and I thought to myself, "I can do that"! I started writing poetry after that, … Continue reading Writing

I thought I knew what I wanted for myself. I went after a job that I thought would be great for me. Turns out, it's not. I'm learning to trust my gut; my intuition. I have to surrender to the process. My Higher Power knows … Continue reading Being True to Myself

"The smile that you gave me even when you felt like dying..." -Billie Eilish There have been many times in my life when I've felt this way. I told my therapist over and over that I was 49/51 on wanting to die vs wanting to … Continue reading Living vs Dying

It's almost noon on a Monday. It's also almost November. I'm getting pretty excited for the holidays this year! Not so much Thanksgiving. Actually, I hope I get to work on Thanksgiving and make extra money! I'm very excited for Christmas this year. It'll be … Continue reading Changes for the Better

I close my eyes for a moment, only to be woke up in what seemed like a minute. I'm not quite sure if it's day or night. I keep on going though. I have to make it through. These next few days will only get … Continue reading Hanging On

Life is really good! I love my new job. I have a better relationship with my Higher Power. I'm basically getting to work out while I work! The physical movement is really good for me. Plus, my work day is over by 10am and then … Continue reading Turning Things Around

Once again I'm writing in the middle of the night. It's almost 2:30am. I can't sleep even though I have a big day tomorrow. I'll be going on a 3 mile walk with my cousin and my sister. We're going to walk for the American … Continue reading On a Walk

My Higher Power is amazing. In just one week I've had so many opportunities for growth in my personal and spiritual life! I applied for a job on Saturday and I now have orientation on Wednesday! This new opportunity could turn into something big for … Continue reading New Opportunities

I'm praying for things to work out as they're supposed to; not as I want them to. I know things will almost never work out the way I think they will. I'm not the ruler of the Universe. I don't really have a say. I … Continue reading Praying

It's almost 3am on a Thursday. Something's telling me to write tonight. I have no clue what to write about. I get writer's block a lot. Especially when I have a lot on my mind. I'm not really even sure I have it in me … Continue reading Lesson or Blessing

Today I wasn't as hard on myself as other days. I had some errands to run and got my hair trimmed; mixing chores with self-care. I cleaned the house for 2 hours; mixing chores with exercise (again, self-care). It was a day of balance. And, … Continue reading In the Face of Uncertainty

Life is full of twists and turns that we may not have anticipated. As it turns out, IOP will not be an option after all because of a financial issue. It is disheartening that treatment isn't affordable a lot of times. I've worked with some … Continue reading Different Direction