Hello friends. I'd like to take a moment to share a little bit about myself and why I write. It all started when I was young. From kindergarten to 5th grade, I didn't have many friends. I maybe had two. I had already been through … Continue reading Why I Write

For the longest time I thought that I wasn't deserving of help because I wasn't "sick enough" in my eating disorder. There wasn't a period of time that I thought I was "sick enough", even during the time I almost passed out from malnutrition and … Continue reading “Sick Enough”

We grow. We change. We heal. Consider who you were 5 years ago. For me, that means a 25-year-old young adult who was trying her hardest to get sober from alcoholism. It also means a young woman who was doing her best to stay alive … Continue reading Not Who I Was

Hello, beautiful soul. This is what I will say: you will absolutely be okay. This hurt that plagues you will leave in time. It can't last forever, no matter how it declares itself permanent and keeps you blind. There will be a day, someday soon, … Continue reading A Letter of Support

I was in pieces. Nothing mattered. There was nothing in life that intrigued me anymore. I fell and crashed into the dark. I found hope in others. In their words of strength. Their words of encouragement. They said that I deserved recovery. I deserved life. … Continue reading Fallen into Wholeness

There's something beautiful about authenticity. It always lives in truth and always shines. I'm working on being my most authentic self and speaking my truth. No one can tell me my truth is wrong. It's mine to hold. It's mine to share if I want … Continue reading Now I Know

My therapist would always ask the most clever questions to help me talk through whatever it was we were talking about that day. It was like she could read my mind at times! And she would remember so many details (big or small) that she'd … Continue reading Listening Superpowers

Relax into this day. Close your eyes. Feel the Spirit move about you. Take a solid breath in... and exhale slowly. Your Spirit Guide is there within; protecting you totally and completely. Spirit Guide, show me where to go from here. I'm not sure where … Continue reading Spirit Guide/ I’m Worth It

It's another season of change in my life. I don't cope well with changes, but I can say that I do cope with change a hell of a lot better now than I used to! That's progress. So, as I sit here wondering what's coming … Continue reading Changes and Lessons

"I love this journey of healing!!! Sometimes it's fucking difficult, for sure! In the same breath, it's so amazingly beautiful and crazy incredible!!!" -words I said to a friend during a conversation about life in recovery from addictions & mental illness. It's a tough thing... … Continue reading Continued Healing

My therapy journey has come to a pause for now. There's nothing more I could get out of therapy at this point in time. My therapist was right: therapy is a crutch for me. Do I NEED it or do I WANT it?  The answer … Continue reading Therapy No More

It's a gloomy, grey day today with a light, consistent wind and some rain. Perfect weather for staying in bed. I woke up at 6am only to go back to bed later for an hour and a half nap. I'm sluggish... and I don't really … Continue reading Those Blah Days

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It's time to heal. Heal in the most authentic ways possible. They say it takes time. For me, it took a milestone. Making it past my 30th birthday was huge for me. It meant I was free from that belief system I had lived in … Continue reading Healing Myself

My ED recovery is sort of shaky (to say the least). I think I'm doing okay, yet, I can't help but to know that is a complete lie. It's me in denial. So, how do I get myself to see the truth? Truth is: I'm … Continue reading My Eating Disorder and Me