What's my inspiration? How I feel in my soul and see through my heart. There's truth in that. Despite the darkness, I always keep going. No one can take that away. The love recieved from others, and the truth that their heart energy spreads. The … Continue reading A Poem- Inspiration.

There's nothing like feeling the keys of the keyboard under my fingertips. There's something freeing about writing. I can say what comes to my mind and not have to worry about it coming out perfect; I can always edit later if I need to. I've … Continue reading Freedom in Writing.

Lately I can't help but to love life. I'm finally happy! It's not the anything has changed much about my life, but I've changed my outlook. I'm listening to my intuition. When something feels "off" then I try to stay away from it. If I … Continue reading Genuine Happiness.

I'm sitting in the kitchen waiting for my coffee to brew. I was searching Pinterest for some inspiration, and I came across this quote: "and she embraced the chaos as it painted her life with purpose" -JH Hard. I have been struggling lately to find … Continue reading Painted Her Life With Purpose.

Something came over me as I was laying in bed looking at Facebook. I saw an inspirational meme about self- love. Suddenly there was a feeling of total body acceptance for myself. I hadn't felt this feeling in a long time! It comes and goes … Continue reading I Love Myself.

I'm sitting in my kitchen contemplating on a subject that I read about in a daily meditation today. What has recovery given me? My holistic recovery gives me so much more than the life I knew before! It gives me freedom. Freedom in decision making … Continue reading Freedom in Recovery.

A week ago I had a dream about Jimmy. In it, he had survived. He was sitting in a chair with his back towards me. I saw his blonde hair and his dress shirt. He was saying that he was happy to be alive. I … Continue reading Jimmy.

There's something magical about asking for help. It can be really scary, too! It means we've admitted we can't do this by ourselves. It means surrender. I reached out to a 12 step program through email. It was something I KNEW I had to do. … Continue reading Asking for Help=Hope.

I'm done putting myself down. I'm done thinking I deserve pain. I'm done listening to my inner critic. I don't deserve to be treated that way. Total acceptance and love of myself starts here. To be authentically me. I deserve to be kind and gentle … Continue reading Self-Apology.

Beauty comes through in many ways. There's beauty in kindness. In courage. In truth. Through these things, a person can transform their life. I have come far in my recovery journey. I've seen the ugliness that I lived in my former life. I have no … Continue reading Beauty in Recovery.

Sunday, November 24th. That was the day I admitted complete defeat over my eating disorder. I sat in my dietician's office; scared, anxious, frustrated. I knew I needed to be there, but ED was telling me otherwise. I had been up for two days prior, … Continue reading Healing in Eating Disorder Recovery.

I'm sitting in my living room. It's December 1st. I'm excited about December this year! There will be celebrations every week! This week my dad is coming into town. The next is my 1 year sober! Then I turn 29. Then Christmas with the family. … Continue reading Celebrations and Transformations.

Today is the last day in November 2019. I'm looking forward to what December will hold for me. Even still, I know it's just one day at a time. My Higher Power is the manager of my life. I heard someone say that recenty and … Continue reading Change This Year.

I'm honestly not feeing very inspired right now. It's almost 7pm on Thanksgiving night. I've had a full day. Woke up at 3am, and haven't had a nap. I do want to touch on something though. This time last year I was drunk. I didn't … Continue reading Today I’m Alive.

It's Thanksgiving day, 2019. I had the opportunity to attend a gratitude meeting this morning. I was moved to say that I'm grateful 1) for another day sober, and 2) to be alive. I meant those two things with all my heart. This time last … Continue reading Gratitude.