It's one of those days. Those days when the bully in my head takes over and pushes me down so hard that I can't get back up. I woke up thinking negatively. Overwhelmed by the day, the coming weeks, the next few months, life. I … Continue reading The day is canceled.

Today I spoke up more than I usually would on any given day. It feels uncomfortable and unsettling. Why though? Maybe I'm worried about what others are thinking of me? Maybe it's because it's new and new things are scary? Maybe it's because it just … Continue reading Uncomfortable

I've been having a rough week this week. I'm learning that my friends are truly there for me, even the ones who I wouldn't expect to be. There's comfort in knowing that no matter what life throws at me, I'll have people there to back … Continue reading What do I need?

I just had a huge moment of growth. As I was looking at my phone contacts, I noticed my old therapist's number on there. Usually I would feel saddened by the fact that I can no longer reach out to her for help on a … Continue reading Smiling at the past.

As someone close to me always says, "Sometimes the Universe will hit me with a 2x4". Well, the Universe hit me right in the gut this time. It's a wake up call. I have been so wrapped up in myself that I couldn't see anyone … Continue reading Life’s 2×4’s.

There's a sound outside that reminds me of a singing bowl. It sounds beautiful in the middle of the night. Sounds seem brighter, and colors are shades of blue. It gives me inspiration to know that I can wake up in the dark, and still … Continue reading Let go and live.

In my quest of working on self-acceptance, I am coming to realize that everything I've been avioding in life is just a thing in the Universe. Even when I'm in emotional pain I can accept the pain for being just as it is in that … Continue reading It’s just a thing in the Universe.

Something I learned is that lack of impulse control can be another symptom of bipolar, even when stable. So, knowing that, I can notice when I'm letting my impulses win,and then begin to do something about them before they take over. It's about staying honest … Continue reading A text to my therapist.

I was reminded tonight that I am not my thoughts. I don't have to buy into everything I think. I was invited to a bonfire meeting tonight. It was spectacular. There is an aura about bonfires in general that really brings people together. I felt … Continue reading My own best friend.

There's a darkness in her that screams for attention. She won't have it. Not today, not tomorrow, not ever again. The darkness might be seductive with it's siren call, and that's fine. Let it cry out. She won't listen. She won't get caught up again. … Continue reading If only.

The Universe is a constant energy working through my life. When I'm feeling scared, lonely, and empty, I can ask God to fill my soul back up. I have a hard time asking for help from my Higher Power sometimes. It's vulnerability in knowing that … Continue reading God is my everthing.

There's silence in the night. The dogs are snoring. Their bedtime is 9pm. I'm thinking too much, as usual. I wish I could sleep like the dogs. They don't have a care in the world. All they know is that it's bedtime. I have a … Continue reading Moon.

I'm not going to sugarcoat it. For a long time I have felt undeserving of moving forward in life. Unworthy might be the word. I have kept myself in a cage, with the door wide open for me, too afraid to believe in myself. I … Continue reading Fear knocked, Faith answered, no one was there.

Self-care is essential to my mental health. Some of my "must do" for self-care are meditation and mindfulness. These are, in fact, two separate entities. My meditation practice is aimed at seated stillness and silence with a mantra. My mantra is repeated silently in my … Continue reading Wellness of Mind.

What I'm learning through self-expression ultimately boils down to self-validation. I'm learning to stand up for what I believe in, and to have the courage to use my voice. There's absolutely nothing wrong with speaking my truth. Everyone's perception of life is different. That's what … Continue reading Let’s Reframe.